One of the most common concerns in Christians new to the faith is assurance. New converts spend a lot of time working out their own salvation in their minds. Too often they convince themselves that they are not born again after all, because they don’t ‘feel” like they are.
As they work through their doubts, they fear that the Lord might return before they have ensured that they are right with him. Essentially they fear he may come back too soon. This is human nature. I think most Christians go through this phase. It is hard to accept that reconciliation with God can be as simple as asking his forgiveness and accepting his son, and that one need not feel saved to be saved.
Seasoned Christians, who have grown under the teaching and preaching of their pastor and others in ministry, no longer need such assurance, because the evidence of their conversion is seen in the change wrought in their lives by the Holy Spirit. Somewhere in one’s Christian experience, a metamorphosis takes place and we go from worrying that God will come too soon to worrying that he won’t come soon enough. Indeed, many older believers have a longing deep inside them to be with the Lord.
While on a break from a workshop he was attending in a neighboring city, a young man rushed to the corner café for lunch. When the waiter came to his table to take his order, both the man and the waiter were stunned at the other’s appearance. They were mirror images of each other.
Shaken, the man asked the waiter to sit and talk. They soon discovered that they were brothers, identical twins, who had apparently been separated at birth due to separate adoptions, but who were never told about each other.
As they shared their experiences and got to know each other, they learned that both of them had felt a longing and emptiness that they could not explain for as long as they could remember. It was as if they were incomplete and were waiting for something or someone. Meeting each other by chance had satisfied that longing.
Believers experience a similar longing in their hearts. It is more than just the Holy Spirit’s presence in our lives. There seems to be an unseen bond connecting us to our savior. We feel an emptiness that makes us long for heaven’s shore. Consequently, until we see him face to face, like the twins, we feel incomplete.
I am reminded of the words of the wonderful song “Beulah Land.” The first couple of lines capture splendidly the longing of the Christian heart for that place where they will be in their Savior’s presence.
“I’m kind of homesick for a county to which I’ve never been before”
Young Christian be of good cheer. If you have asked the Lord into your heart, it doesn’t matter how you feel, because feelings change. We are fickle, emotional creatures. Trust his Word and not your feelings. You name is written in the Book of Life and it can never be blotted out. If you must feel badly let your ailment be only that you are homesick for heaven.